At the request of someone I care about I am writing this blog. Many who know me know that I suffer from Anxiety. I am not ashamed of this. What makes me mad and sad at the same time is how others perceive this condition. Having any kind of mental disability is not the fault of the inflected. In most cases it is a chemical imbalance in our brains. Anxiety and depression are really not different than any other disability such as ADHD, ADD & Dyslexia.
Why do we treat someone with this malady so poorly. I should be commended because I recognized that there was a problem and I do everything I can to keep it under control. Life is hard enough with this daily battle. We do not need others looking down on us or condemning us for this condition. We need you to be there to hold our hand and get us through the down moments.
Everyone is quick to jump on the bandwagon and post (re post) comments about supporting someone in my situation but how many of them have. Lets just say I am open about my condition and I can count on one hand the number of people who support me.
I have anxiety and depression! I do not have some highly contagious and life threatening illness. When you are talking down to someone who is like me remember there is no one who can do more damage than ourselves. I live my life like the rest of you, the only difference is I have to take medication everyday to keep my emotions under control! My worst moments are usually when I am highly stressed, over tired, or in one of several situations that make me feel out of control. So far the biggest problem I have experienced is the lack of sleep and the inability to purchase Items while shopping. Most would wonder why but to make it simple it is the idea of not having enough money and having to put things back. This scares the crap out of me and I will break out in a cold sweat. I am so thank full for those who are in my life. I wouldn't be able to grocery shop without my husband. I am fine putting the stuff in the cart, I keep tabs on the amount being spent, I know what the budget is for the trip, but still he is the one that pays for the items.
Continue to look down on me and talk about me behind my back if you must but know this.... I am going to continue to fight for everyday I get. I am going to make others in my situation feel loved and cared about. Help them to understand that they are not alone in this battle we have to face daily. Because it is a battle and taking the easy way out holds no appeal for me. So the next time you are making fun of someone who is in a similar situation or you condemn someone because of something they can not control remember you might be that last piece of straw that broke the camels back!
until next time
MS
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